I am walking down Michigan Avenue
and a cold, distant Chicago breeze passes me by. The city
is damp tonight, reminding me very much of Amsterdam, but
without its depth of character. This is the problem with American
cities. Their superficiality gives a false illusion of character.
In Chicago, the dampness only brings
out the cities true ugliness. Dirt, both human and material,
seems to stand out in the subtle darkness. In Amsterdam, a
European city that lends it self to the dampness of an oncoming
rain, this sort of atmosphere lends allows the city to come
alive with all its fantastic characters illuminating through
every shadow. It brings a kind of beauty not found in an unadorned
countryside, or that of the Garden at Versailles, but a sinister
beauty. The kind that must be looked at in just the precise
way to be appreciated. Gaze through the darkness, and you
will find a rose under the blaring red lights. Here, in Chicago,
gaze through the darkness, and you will find an emptiness,
forcing a smile, trying to hide its despair.
A blistering cold wind begins to
ransack my body. I look for cover in one of the towering skyscrapers,
but I decide not to run. Not to escape to the warm inside,
knowing eventually I will have to go back outside. No running
or hiding behind glass doors, mirrors of illusion, that is
the American way and I, bless the heavens, am not American.
No, I am French, and in France we do not hide ourselves behind
walls. In France, we do not run.
Random drops of rain begin to speed
at me, spiking me with their icy touch. Not at all like the
cool, soothing rains of Paris, in which lovers dance and frolic
in. The calmness of the French rain is replaced here in America
with the senseless, violent fury that emulates the unprovoked
ignorance which Americans posses towards each other.
A country whose people continuously
put on the mask of having everything. Hiding the emptiness,
and loneliness behind a mask of material possessions. How
pathetic because behind this mask is the unfaced realization
that having everything does not evolve into having what matters.
You see, in France, we do not work
ourselves to death for the sake of monetary rewards. You Americans
laugh at our purported laziness, but it is jealousy that consumes
you. Yes, the French work 35 hours a week. We have twice as
much vacation time. We have the opportunity to appreciate
life through its natural beauty. We don't slave ourselves
for 60 hours a week just so we can buy a big screen TV that
we can never even watch because we are always at work, or
buy fancy cars that we have the opportunity to drive only
once per week for barely an hour. Perhaps the French do not
have the means to acquire the material possessions that you
Americans do, but at the same time we don't need them. We
don't yearn for them. No, you stupid Americans, you will never
see a Frenchman with a head full of stress. The food we eat
is exquisite, not like the greasy fat you fill yourselves
with. The women we romance are slender and tall. Their accents
sing like a siren, not like your women whose voices are more
like bark. We sleep, we relax, we enjoy, and we appreciate.
We are also happy, unlike half your population that is doped
up on anti-depressants. It seems the only happiness your greed
can buy you is in a prescription bottle. You puzzle me. All
of you. When I decided to come to this country and write about
it, I did not think it would be like this, but I somehow find
the courage to walk amongst you everyday. What courage it
is. You see, happiness, my idiot American step-cousins, is
not found in having. It is found in appreciation. Something
you will never understand so long as you bury yourselves so
far deep in your delusions.